life's hard! life's tough! To understand life is to die at the end of life...when everything flying pass you like a bad plotted movie. Flushing your brain with memories the sweet, the sad etc.
But going trough life's more difficult. There's memory tend to hurt you that never gone and that one time of happy moment that you can't forever keep. Everything that's happen every now and then in life leave a mark or atleast a scratch or two. Some of it delightful but much more is hurtful.
Either it's gonna do you good or do you harm. When happened, living trough the tough time is a miracle of life.
Stronger people face it alone, the weaker one seek for help and the helpless one let it gets to them... what ever works to be in this world playing the life game. There's a roll of dices for turns, card of decision to pick and roulette of fate to turn in the bonus round. Everybody knows the end though...
Unfortunately your soul got rotten by life along the way. Your a singing child at begining of life nothing's trouble you and life is a pleasure. Then age become older and you become more know of life, and your soul embrace the facts of it or become rotten by it. The soul song stops, once it is singging and dancing now it is just waiting to stop...I keep them singing by plugging my ears with earphones and musics, a lot and lots of music... musics streams into my tuneless soul and keeping it in tune with the life beats.
Some says that music heal the world.
... till how long...for me that is.
Now music just suddenly die in me. Before my rotten;trying to embrace the goodness of life, music is gone.
Because all of a sudden the reciting of Al quran takes place in my broken soul... particularly on this Ramadan, it heals!
...till how long. I hope it is long enough till the end of my life...
Im tuning to a new tune, balancing it between pleasure and pain of life. Hopefully im a good person now and then.
My soul is healing...
From the past of the unfortunate and of the future with no certainty. My soul is a division of good and bad, saint and evil. Each part of it ask to be feed... I pray that I feed them well!
Again life!
Owh life, bring it on the worst of you. Till the end of mine you are nothing. But don't hate me... im just mad!
What didn't kill you only makes you stronger... and you just don't have a clue how strong i am now!
